I never blog or write out my personal thoughts, until I am lead to do so. I base my blog off my life and my personal stories, because my mission in life is to help others that maybe dealing with the same thing. And I never want to see anyone go through certain things, if I can use my life to stop it. I don’t have a title for this blog just yet, maybe by the end of it I will.
So here we go again on the same path and it is you again, I don’t know if it is the empath in me or the genuine love that will never leave. The whole situation caused me to question myself, it caused me to take a deeper look at myself. And even with some flaws I take peace in knowing, I love unconditionally and with truth. I never place judgement on people, because I know that no one is perfect however. I do take a look at people’s actions from start to finish, I have went out of my way regarding you and your ways. I have even tried to look at it from your perspective, knowing that hurt people without true healing. Are genuinely not open to welcome genuine love in, when they start to see a close bond starting they do whatever it takes to push those that genuinely love them away. Hurt people hurt people because they are selfish in many ways, they don’t take the time to heal themselves and place blame on everyone but themselves. That right there is a selfish judgemental move, even after years and finally coming to the conclusion of it isn’t me and you. It never was me, it was all you and this is known fact. Knowing I simply cannot make anyone see my heart or can I push love on them. I can only continue to love people, and show them that I care. I cannot force them in their flawed ways to return the love.
I cannot force people to level themselves and be the same daily, I cannot force them to see their mistreatment of me just because I am me. And not treat me different from the way they treat all people, and then they have the look of guilt upon their face because they know they are wrong with their treatment towards me. Still to this day you call yourself trying to protect me, when truth is your actions of indifference towards me hurt me more than ever. I’ll never understand how someone, can be so cold and so indifferent towards someone who only loved them in truth. I could literally hate you for the lies, betrayal, and blatant disrespectful ways towards me.
So many things like misunderstanding could be avoided in this life, if people would be completely honest from the start. And stop coming at people in the wrong way, stop treating others one way and those you think are good enough better than the next. It only speaks loud about your character, and the pain you are dealing with on the inside. We should do/treat all people equally in the way we want to be treated. In the end those same people you hurt with your indifference, you more than likely will need.
Anyone that genuinely love you and care about you, will never hurt you or lie to you. They will protect your heart at all cost, they won’t do you any kind of way. They won’t treat other people better than you, they will treat you all equally.