Hey King Alpha

I seem to write when there is so much on my mind and my spirit need to feel free. It feels polluted and heavy by everything that has been going on, here I am sitting here like oh I am not good enough? What makes the next so better than me is it the years she has on me? Please excuse me while I write out truth, I came to know you at a time when my heart and soul was lonely and so in love with another, this the type of love that two people don’t have to lay with one another to find. My teacher and my ACE he was and he made me even more better, the good in me comes from God the love in me is for all in this world that’s so dark. Just that empathetic and humble I am, I been like that since I was young.

Then came you something special on you and I connected with you. Let’s just say you woke my hurt soul, these feelings I was having for another the desire to know you. Why you didn’t tell me no? DEAR GOD!!!! I wish you told me NO!!! If you loved her so and she was enough you would’ve told me NO!!! I hope you fix those things in you that struggle so you want leave another in pain. Dear God I played a huge part in this pain, but you didn’t treat me just like some toy and I thank you for that. You was gentle with me I’ll never forget your heart beat, I felt your heart beat next to mine it was calm and it was free. I cannot forget being able to sense everything you was feeling this wasn’t no min to min, this was something deep something sweet I’ll always keep. Your strength, your heart, your desire to want to be just happy and free and the best man I know and believe it is in you!!! I’ll never regret you even with the pain of connecting with you brought me tears and joy, but I know what it feels like when someone already has your heart and mind.

I’m just happy I get to know you as someone forever special, and I hope you understand even past that one mistake. Loyalty from me will have you amazed and will always be, I respect and honor the King in you ain’t nothing like a “King Alpha” one who is strong and wise and literally will shake your soul!!! Nobody can say anything bad about you to me, I’ll always refuse to hear it or even give it room to breathe. I promise this a real life scene out of a movie, just some things I’ll keep sacred for ever but the short time with you felt like HEAVEN!!!!!!!!

Thank you for being the man that you are grateful to know you!!!!! I genuinely wish you nothing but peace, genuine unshakable love, joy& pure happiness!!!!!!


Reasons a girl needs her father.

Sad part is I once knew men like R.Kelly and I once placed the blame off on my dad for not being there. A girl child needs her father so much that it is ridiculous, a father teaches a girl child what she deserves. I wondered why everyone else had their father, and I couldn’t have mine? I dealt with a lot of neglect and being pushed aside as if I didn’t matter, and that pain caused me to search for a love that never existed and that died back in 1999. I hated that man for years, and I promised I would never cry when he died. Why would I cry for a man that was barely ever there? I don’t know what it is, maybe it is the connection kids share with their parents no matter what due to birth. But I was broken that day the man that help give me life was gone. And I didn’t get the chance to ask him my so many how come? I was 14 when my dad died and here I am at 33, I will never birth a child into this world unless I am sure of the child father. Father’s be there for your kids especially your daughter, be the best good loving role model possible. You are molding her and preparing her, your true love and guidance will be her teacher of what she deserves in a man. I humbly ask that it be good and admirable, lead and guide her properly so she’ll never run into a R. Kelly.

A girl child needs her father for so many reasons so she won’t grow older and search for that void. So she will be stronger in the mind, and know what to stay away from. A father teaches his daughter the proper love, that good Love so she won’t run into the pretender. The pretender that pretend to love her, just to get into her mind and manipulate and control her. A pretender will find a young girl weakness and prey on it, knowing what he wants it to use and control her for his own personal gain. I have learned throughout life, the hurt people hurt people. Some men do it intentionally, and some men do it unintentionally. This is more than enough reason the girl child needs her father, and she needs him to show in action what genuine love is. And when she knows that genuine love, she’ll never accept anything less than the best.

A letter to every young woman

Be brave enough to find out who you’re on your own so you can understand your worth. Because if you don’t you will end up searching for it in all the wrong places, not realizing you’re adding salt to open wounds…….Instead of taking the time to understand what’s making you do all the things you do. You continue running in circles falling into the arms of the wrong man. Searching for love and understanding, and sometimes want(having someone who wants you, and someone who genuinely loves you for who you’re are two totally different things. I ask the Question “Young Woman What Are You Searching For, And Do You Know Your True Worth?” Please allow me to help you by speaking life to your situation, because you have so much to offer to this world!!!!!!

Let your heart shine so bright allowing all to see the God in you.

Yes you’re beautiful every one of you. But, I wonder do you know you’re Royalty? You may ask how is that?  Let me explain something to you……. When you were created in your mothers womb,  you were created for a divine purpose by a higher power. And anyone who has power and is Ruler over earth, is a King above all kings that walk this earth. So being birth through your earthly mother inherited from a King, that makes you the daughter(s) of Royalty!!!! So please understand  you deserve nothing but the best, and that starts with you speaking those words of good and not bad over yourself. You don’t have to go searching for it in a man, or whatever your situation is to make yourself feel worthy. You’re worthy all by yourself and and hearing “whomever ” say it don’t matter at all. Because your Higher Power has already said it and that’s all that matters. Even if you’re a young princess with a absentee father,  you will always  have a Father through the King…….. And He wants nothing but the best for you in every single way there is for you to have good.

°Be still and listen to your inner voice.

You need to know who you’re for many reasons and most of all know your worth. Because if you don’t a little boy(trying to be a man) will sometimes make you question your worth if you aren’t careful. That’s why you must be strong mentally, emotionally, and spiritually on your own. So when you say “No”(no matter the situation) your “No” will hold power with a firm I Mean It!!!!  Men can smell your weakness and will play off of it if you’re not careful. Young woman never lose your power and understand this, you don’t need to give yourself to any man(boy) to feel as if you’re somebody. Or to feel love that usually won’t last long, and 99%of the time it wasn’t love at all it was lust. Because any young man that really loves you young woman, will be willing to wait for you and that is real talk.

°Your body is a temple so therefore it must stay clean and holy at all times.

Wait with purpose and stay pure and don’t give yourself away, staying far away  from any soulties that will keep you bound/broken mentally or spiritually. Because that’s what will happen when you end up with the wrong one, and don’t wait on the right one. And giving yourself a way takes a way a part of you that is so precious, don’t empty  yourself to just a simple man or a boyfriend. Because if he really values you, he will make you his wife without hesitation and trust me when I say this . There are many talks you can have about life, many walks in the parks you can take. And many movies, bowling, skating, and even church functions you can go to you can even volunteer together. There are so many things to keep you occupied and extra busy, and truly learning about the one you say you love and the one that says he loves you. I hope I have encouraged you in some way or another, you’re valuable and precious jewels understand it and believe it. And everything else will fall into place for you, as you keep waiting with paintence on the one sent by The King just for you. Stay the beautiful rose 🌹 The Higher Power created you to be, if you have made a mistake in the past understand forgiveness is yours. All you have to do is ask for it and know that you’re forgiven, and simply start now with the wait you owe it to yourself.