Live out Your Purpose

When he said “I am starting to see this life from a bird’s view”. Ermias Tha Great a.k.a Nipsey Hussle💙🏁 I believe he knew his work was just about done. One thing about God is He is beyond awesome, every human is born with a purpose. And one thing for sure is God is a promise Keeper, He will never let you leave your work undone. God is also a PROTECTOR, and JEALOUS God… So much so that He will never allow anyone to suffer more than they can handle, I know at 34 years old I have been through some storms. Since birth I have been dealt things I know I was meant to endure, because I was equipped to do it. There are times I get exhausted and yet I push, because I am not empty. Those things that used to bother me and cause me to tremble I see differently, things that would make certain people throw in the towel or look for pitty for I cannot pitty anyone and I won’t hand it out either. I remember one of the moments in my life, when I felt as if life was over. I cried for days and I didn’t see myself here now, I just knew I wasn’t going to make it. But, with God. My Brother. My Uncle. My Mom. My ACE. My Cousin. And most of all me I am here, I am stronger and wiser and I will push anyone in my view to the best version of themselves. Remember God holds all Power and you are connected to Him, so tap into that ENERGY and LIVE your Purpose. Make sure your work isn’t left undone, there will be plenty of time to sleep when God speak the words it is Finished. I command those feeling like throwing in the towel, and feeling like your life is over because you are confronted with change that causes you FEAR to do it scared. To Love in truth, to respect all you meet, to lose the anger, lose those things that are draining you. Stop lying, stop pretending. I am not saying be perfect, I am saying live in your truth and do it in a loving respectable way that your light will be energy to those who have lost their zest or spark. Believe in you when no one else does on earth, be your own cheerleader and remember God is pushing you and behind you and beside you and leading you every step of the way. Remember the power your tounge holds and know that you can, and you most certainly will do all things through Christ who is your strength and biggest support system.

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Blessed Is She Who Believes!!!!

I remember where I came from because I never want to be a bad experience to the next person. I believe so much in respect that in run through my veins, this is the quickest way for me to speak very loudly words full with truth. In the position that I am in it has stretched me, it has challenged me and it has made me a even more better human. I believe all people should be treated with respect, I believe there is a way to lead stern and to keep this one positive key in the midst of leadership. I am no perfect human being, and I’ll never allow my troubles to come with me into a place of leadership. I worked hard to get where I am, and I wouldn’t be in the position I am in if I didn’t deserve to be there.

Fact is you will run into some silent dream killers. And then there are the ones that are loud and rude dream killers, but blessed and favored is the one who believes that she can or he can with his whole heart. Never allow anyone to take your joy, or take that positivity out of your life and heart. Because no one has that right and you can do anything you put your mind to, and you can do all things through Christ who is your strength and beyond.

Whatever God says you can do you can do because He equipped you to do it even when you feel stressed or pressures you can. Because Greater is He that is in you, so don’t worry about the silent dream killers. Or those who try to destroy you, and tear you down and push you to your breaking point of losing your view of where you want to go in life. Have faith in yourself and push yourself, to be the best version of who you are and who you are called to be.

Who am I?

I am a imperfect human being that will never hide my imperfections. I’ll never pretend to be this perfect human, because no one on this earth is or even exist. We can just strive to go HIGHER and be a bigger and better version of ourselves and on that path to better, we will make mistakes and slip it’s called learning. One thing about me Ebony Dawn Love I will always be this senstive being, I will live and die a empath. I’ll never allow anyone or anything to take that part of me away, because that makes me exactly who I am. Peculiar, wise, misunderstood, test me you’ll meet the LIONESS in me. I believe in RIGHT!!! That’s why after God I’ll always correct me when I am wrong. That’s just who I am that REAL!!! I know God exist and LIVE, I guarantee I upset Him at times because I allow things to get to me too deeply but I am only human. I also guarantee none of this separate me from HIM!!!! I rather live in all my truth then to hide anything, I learned a long time ago my only mission is to please God to the best of my ability. Sometimes good spirits are tested the most and that’s because God knows we can handle it!!!! No matter what we can handle it through stress, pain, let downs, persecution, and broken heart we can handle it and we will always bounce back to GREATER and BETTER on a HIGHER level elevated with more POWER!!! It’s the unbreakable CONNECTION!!!! 💙

I desire to see more love in this world it’s simply too much hate. Too many people adding more pain to one another with their selfish acts, women being broken down mentally, emotionally, spiritually. By selfish men who only think of themselves, let’s not forget about the disloyalty that runs rampant in this earth realm. When truth is all a woman like me wants to do is LOVE deeply, and give selflessly as much as I can. Not one to look for anything in return, but the same LOVE and genuine RESPECT that I give. But, I always have to keep in mind that everyone heart ain’t like mine. But, that’ll never get me to doubt the change in this world that can be, and that comes with people laying down their selfish ways. Stop lying and live in your truth, but most of all do it in pure LOVE with respect and value for others and honoring the next being existence. Stop being darkness, stop draining others, stop taking from people like they owe you something. Be honest with people, and when you blessed to meet genuine good people cherish them. Because they are very precious and valuable so keep them close, and don’t push them away with your selfish ways and throwing your indifference towards them. Because truth is every spirit and soul do matter, make sure you planting good seeds and nurturing the next being a light. And remember it never hurts, to check on those strong ones and ask them are they okay? Because truth is just to know a person care in truth, can nurture and be healing to a soul that might need that extra push and encouragement. This is who I am and what I give, and pray to start seeing it more in this world and truth is it starts one by one so pay it forward.

When “Love” ain’t enough.

Started off as a connection that is unexplainable. I used to be the girl who was attracted to looks, oh my first response would be oh he is fine you were different. I saw something in you that only God could show me, I saw in you what I was meant to see. Then things turned into a friendship a bond you said would never be broken, a bond you said you would never allow anyone to come between. Every time I saw you my heart would smile, I could talk to you about anything. You know things about me no one else knows about me, you were always there anytime I needed you. Felt like I couldn’t breathe when I lost you, I remember many sleepless nights. The pain of knowing someone is meant to be in your life, and the person allowed outsiders to fog his mind in every single way. He allowed pride to get in the way of what was a precious bond, someone I know deep in my heart loved me and told me back when I spoke the words I love you.

You were my strength here on earth and second to God you were everything to me, I adored you more than anything. I sacrificed, I suffered, I even took the blame when you were so wrong. There were times I couldn’t stand you and was so angry, to find out someone who meant the world to me would betray me was painful. I suffered in silence, my heart ached so bad it felt like I was dying daily. I was torn between pain, even when I love(d) you so much. I could never hate you because that’s not who I am, how could I hate the man who took me through hell? But, at the same time taught me so much, the love I had for you saved me(you helped save my life) I was broken and torn from the inside out but never stopped loving you. I don’t believe in giving up on people I genuinely love, and dear God knows I love(d) you from my heart and soul. You were my friend that I needed and loved dearly, and I know that LOVE pushed you away and caused you to do some of the things you did that brought me great pain. I know you very well, and I was beyond loyal to you. The man who pushed me to be better, and taught me the true meaning of love. See, what I know is love is beyond a beautiful thing, but it ain’t always easy. There will be tough times and times you cannot stand the other person, but when love is genuine it will always win and overcome any obstacles.

Love is patient and kind, love doesn’t envy, love isn’t proud or is it self-seeking. Love isn’t easily angered or does it keep any record of wrong, there is Faith, Love, Hope. And the greatest one of them all is LOVE!!!!! I know in my heart the promise, I know I was meant to LOVE you like I did. I know I am a part of your PURPOSE, I know the things that scare you. And what I learned is you cannot force a selfish/prideful man to wake up, so I finally woke up to realize no matter how much I love you and need you. No matter how much you’ll always mean to me, no matter how painful it is I had to let go.

I know people will probably say oh you been through a lot and love him in truth. Yes, but sometimes enough becomes enough. You cannot make a person change their ways, they have to do that on their own. You could love the hell out of them, and it still won’t be enough unless they welcome it just as much. I know you supported me and encouraged me, prayed for me and uplifted me just like I did you and I know you care. I have seen it in your eyes and the connection, I just said no more games or lies. You cannot love a man and lose yourself in the process, the best part of me I gave was true love and sacrifice. Women even if you know a man is meant to be there, he has to still want to be there.

It is personal.. Letting Go!

I made the mistake years ago in believing your words you spoke to me, words that touched my heart and soul. I believed you when you said our bond was special, and you would never allow anyone to come between us. I believed you when you said so much to me until I started seeing your actions, telling me one thing and then showing me another. I was then made to look like the wrong one, when I pointed this out to you. In spite of the lies and the indifference, what made it grow deeper is what I seen and felt in prayer. What I started to feel in my heart, knowing someone is meant to be in your life and they treat you like you have no worth or value. Cannot make up their mind one minute to the next, speaking to you one moment and treating you like you are the enemy the next moment. Someone you know is a good person deep inside, and yet you watch pride and stubbornness reveal truth you don’t want to believe because you know there is good inside you seen it so many times.

I was the one that was there to encourage and speak life many times, all the words spoken to you from me was truth. I wish you can go back to that gift I gave you, the words that were spoken to me to give to you. It is a hard thing to watch someone you love act in such a way and for what? This connection in feeling everything they feel is painful, feeling so connected to someone with your heart and soul is painful. Especially when they keep hurting you, and you just don’t understand why. But I cannot keep doing it, no matter how much I believe in you. No matter how much I love you, and no matter how much I adore you. I simply have no more words at all for you, I have been loyal and beyond. I trusted you and I wish you knew how much I need you, but I have to let you go. I don’t know what it is that hurt you, I don’t know what it is that cause you to respond in the way you have. I am confused, I am hurt, I am so tired and done with it all. You touched my soul and I wish you could see from my view, I cannot make you get it though. And I am done fighting with you, and most of all I am done fighting for you and I have to be. I am a soul, I have a heart, I have worth and I am beyond valuable dear heart and I do matter. I have seen the best in you and I pray for you, I fall asleep praying for you. I pray for you more than I do myself, after thanking God every morning I pray for you and everything concerning you. I pray that God strengthen you, Lord I love you so much in spite of it all. Truth is I just want you to see this, it has never been about attacking you. I honestly wanted you to see from my view, you cannot promise someone something and break the promise. You cannot take a chance on others, and then judge the one that speak truth to you…. I am the way that I am and have been for a long time because of you, I believe you let many cloud your vision and why the friendship ended is because of you.

Lord knows I believe in growth and I also believe we shouldn’t lose the best part of us. I find it really hard to understand what you are fighting against concerning me, what caused you to go silent. It is really crazy because something inside tells me, that you truly care and you really do love me. I can feel it but I got to let go now and cut the cord, I cannot fight anymore for peace with you only for it to be disturbed with your unsure actions. It is so funny to me when I hear more than one person say you never know, what I do know is I am done. I am so done with the games and the up and down, I am done with it all. This will never change my love and respect for you, and yes it do hurt so much. But I can do and I will do all things through Christ who is my strength. I forgive you and I have forgiven you more than once, I pray for you man. I pray that God heal and restore everything in you that you question and fear, I love you throughout eternity strong man, brave man, good man, the man I know you are.

2AM

For the last few nights I have been up way past time simply because my mind won’t stop moving. He has been on my mind the good and the bad, wondering what do you do when you understand a person response. But don’t understand their reaction, everything from the last few years are coming back to me. I am reminded of the pain because of him, being anywhere close to him brings up the pain.

Truth is I took time to try to get rid of something that won’t leave, you cannot make anyone see they are supposed to be in your life. You cannot make anyone see the pain they have caused, when they are simply too selfish. I haven’t been the only one to bring this word to life regarding him and it is truth. The most selfish, stubborn, prideful, good, loving, awesome man I have known. Everyone has two sides to them and it is simple hell that I know them both, when you love someone you love through the good and the bad. He took my heart and soul from me, I love him so much it hurts. And I mean that literally it is painful, it is a thought process of why? Why will my heart not let him go, I know the answer is because I am supposed to love him. He is supposed to be in my life I need him to be there so much, that it simply aches every inch of my soul. The love for him gave me reason and helped saved my life, when it simply felt hard to breathe. Even though it hurts so bad, I have to let him go. He don’t deserve this love and he’ll honestly never find one like me, that will be loyal as I have and understanding. No more, I am tired, you cannot win with a prideful and stubborn heart. There is simply nothing else left to give, Dear God please heal. Please restore and rebuild and don’t allow this pain, to be inflicted off on others. Don’t allow not understanding to cause unwanted questions. I am more than worthy to call friend, I am worth it to get to know. I am a good woman who is beautiful and loving, I am a soul with a heart who matters. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I am awesome and a good loyal woman. I will have s support system around me, one who shows no jealousy. Ones who don’t gossip, or do horrible backbiting and tearing me down as a human. I will be blessed with family who isn’t blood, that will Love and cherish me through the good and the bad.

I am not afraid to let go anymore of anything or anyone who is toxic, I am not afraid to let go of people who cause me to question my worth and don’t understand my value. I know it is okay to love from a distance, especially if you have tried to exist in peace more than once. It is okay to be free of anyone who hurts you, and has shown you nothing but pain and selfish ways.

To Know You

To know you was like a dream and full with many great things. A gift to the universe with a heart so big and pure, one of a kind special and real. A teacher, a friend, a encourager, a listener full with patience and inspiration full of light and love for the world. Called for something greater than you could ever imagine, to know you is a blessing full with truth and one could never  understand. What valuable lessons one learned and how empowering it is just to know you.

A woman lost and scorn heart literally clawed at by what she thought was real love. When fact is she didn’t really know love until you a true friend she was to you. The walk of strength and courage full with wisdom, all wrapped up with perfection in you. Created by a higher Power, that left a light so bright in you that even the stars couldn’t outshine you. To know you is to know someone so remarkable, a kind and loving most of all caring soul you are. Who helped a lost soul find her worth, and gain more strength. Who pushed her for the better with encouragement, when she didn’t even believe in herself and the connection/bond. Made her want to be even more  stronger, braver, bolder, and truly more courageous!!!! She wanted nothing more than to love you forever, what she saw in you was grace it is what made her care for you deeply she saw your heart of truth.

She saw your heart that’s what she became connected to. She saw the beauty of the Highest Power within you, she saw inspiration and a new smile of happiness in you each day she was in your presence. Her voice became silent as she listened humbly in submission, a woman of respect and courage listening to wisdom… She didn’t want to miss nothing a new lesson learned everytime she heard you speak. She saw a prince a true son of a King, she saw love and someone Highly Favored! What she saw in you was some thing incredible and unshakable, cannot be created twice one of kind you are and forever will be. To know You what a honor she is for ever grateful, to know you is a blessing one she will cherish a kind heart with a gentle and giving spirit.