I’ve known a few men in my life and I didn’t have a father to teach me what genuine love is. I learned it a long the way as I got older and found my way in the world, I learned it being a empathetic human and connecting with those I was supposed to connect with. Dear God I wish I never came in contact with a few, I mean those demons were hell sent to earth to torture and mistreat innocent women they saw a weakness in. One devil you could call a serial killer(actual killer) that was evil from the inside out and up until he took his own evil life. It gives me great joy knowing he’ll never hurt another.
My first love I came to know when I was 20 years old and he was 23. Both Pisces who were crazy about one another, I used to think down on myself like why do guy not like me and what’s wrong with me? I finally learned a real man will love all of you and he won’t be ashamed of you, and his actions in truth will show you just how much he care about you. This man picked me out the crowd& for 5 years off and on we had a relationship, we were homeless together and lived in a hotel together and we went through it together. It was all good until he became controlling & would like to punch and hit me because he thought it was cute, pushed me down one day and though after that I was supposed to lay with him like everything was okay. I did for the longest put up with his mess, hey he was my first LOVE, kiss& my everything I didn’t know how to let go until enough was enough and the other women kept popping up so that was the end to that chapter.
I used to think in order for a man to LOVE you that meant you have to sleep with him and give yourself a way to keep him. I was wrong and 5 years ago I saw a new way of loving, that was through connection then heart and then soul. I learned how to be a better and stronger me because of his light and encouragement, I did fall hard in Love with his being and the goodness upon him. The God in him I adored and it made me love him even the more, I saw Jesus in Him and I felt God upon him. I believe in him until this day, and I truly believe we all will have more than one soul mate I’ll love my ACE eternal.
Let me talk about KING oh it was fire and a magnetic pull that attracted me to him. It was his dang big koolaid smile that had me like a kid in the candy store, it was his strength and integrity that pulled me towards him. I’m the woman that will& can always get the man all the girls want, females hate badly still to this day with the why me? What do I have that they don’t have? If looks could kill the hate would be been deadly, this man came in when I was healing and a perfect goodness to my soul. Months of bliss& fun and just having him around, we was like little kids that like to play fight and joke around. Then I would chew his head off like I was his wife& he deserved it at times(I am a protector) KING calmed me down and made me a better me!!!! HE was the calm to me the storm& he never lost his cool with me when I went off on him because he deserved it. I love him endlessly that’s my heart, my left side and my forever homie& my forever true soul mate and mentally my twin flame who has been everything to me through the good and bad and I will with my whole heart second to Jesus I will love him eternally, KING thank you for being so stubborn and the real authentic you and please don’t change. Sidenote: I do pray to Go the most high that you get rid of those selfish a stubborn ways you have, I LOVE you KING D!!!!!!!!! My soul is tied to his forever and a unbreakable bond through the thick and the thin, I am a better me and a more at peace me because he challenged me and pushed me to better.
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